September in squares.
I have been battling a war against myself. I don’t know when I was feeling okay since the year started. I know that I am blessed and I have to be thankful for that. Every now and then, I thank Him for all the blessings that I receive; that despite all these scars that I’m getting I know I am learning. I haven’t stood up on my real toes yet, I once knew myself but I suddenly got lost in motion. I have been on such a bad state, a shape where I’ve never shifted before. This is just hard, it’s painful and it’s breaking me. I don’t know when I will end this but so far I haven’t found myself yet in this storm. Gray and black, I am yet putting back colors in my life. I have been trying to keep myself happy, I tried using different escape gates, but nothing seem to be of work. I need to calm myself, maybe I need to go somewhere and think over my thoughts. I want to go to a place where I wouldn’t have some communication with anyone or just with anything to tell and remind me about my life. I want to just forget all that I am now, because maybe if I go out of my real world, I would realize what went wrong. Maybe, just maybe I would be able to find myself, maybe I could claim my best self back by then. As of now I couldn’t call myself a survivor, I am still in this long battle and I don’t see yet why I am here. I am not giving up, I am not cheating my life, I will continue to push stronger, press harder up until I find an answer. For the mean time, I hope people understand me. I’m on my softest point, fragile and bound to crack at any point.
Destined to break your heart.
I felt really bad about my Coloud headphones giving up fast. I bought it this March and come August the other ear wasn’t functioning anymore. Imagine, 6 months for 1,195 pesos. I told myself that I should have gone for another cheaper brand. I trusted Coloud that they could serve me at least a year and here I go, once more, ending up getting a new one.
Well this post has a catch. Truth is, I only bought this headset for 300 pesos. Still having the complete packaging and receipt of my previous headset, they allowed me to have the unit replaced since it hasn’t been a year. Another catch is, they could upgrade my unit to a higher one by just adding some pesos coming from the original price of your broken headphones. Yesterday I was speaking with the salesman and I asked if other brands do the same thing, he mentioned that not all would usually replace the unit and hence they only accept repairs. From then, I realized, the idea of getting Coloud wasn’t as bad because they really prove to be living to the quality that they assured their customers of. So there I go, getting my old earphones to a proof of promise.
Just this time, I allowed my feelings to take over me. My life was in so much happiness thinking that nobody could ever make me feel that same way again. I had several years of getting used to being alone. Sparks weren’t there and I thought, if I’m going for something not worth it, I’d rather not pursue it. I went on, braved the rain and caught you. Unfortunately, after being that strongwilled man, I failed another oppprtunity. I am feeling a little distracted right at this moment and by saying that this is only a moment, I know it won’t last long. If there’s one thing I learned from you, it would have nothing to do with loving another person. Instead, it’s about loving myself. You taught me to give importance on myself. Whether it’s a good thing or bad, I don’t know. Maybe, for some time or rather for long, I should just love myself and quit roaming like a dog chasing that once I thought my star.
Mongkok, Hong Kong
From denim down to denims - - - I never really imagined denim to be worn with denim before. Even the thought of doing it seems a little stupid for me. Later I realized fashion can just be a turn table of events. It is truly unimaginable turned to reality. And catch about is, if you wear it, you have prove that you can wear it. Wearing clothes makes you feel confident but first you have to make sure you’re also confident about wearing it.
Denim tip: when wearing denims, try different shading. On the picture I wore four different shades of denim. From my gray denim shoes to my light denim button downs.
"God bless all my passenger"
As a Thomasian student, it has always been hard for me to look for food to eat for lunch and this is mainly of two things.Number one, there’s lots of food to choose from and number two, almost all the food places out there are fast food chains. It’s been that hard to look for a decent place to eat, if you do, it usually gets to be a rip off.
So I started with graduate school and my friend brought me to this place called The Pit. I figured out that their food is nothing really special compared with other food places in UST. So I just ordered what I wanted, a sinful sizzling plate of sisig. After getting to my first bite, I eventually realized I was wrong. This Sisig is priced at 115, the best I’ve tried was Almer’s but their food quality faltered after a few years. Chicharon goes well with sisig but not when there’s too much. I remember only eating chicharon on a sizzling plate when I ordered from Almers and it was a complete waste of money. But heading back, The Pit’s play on chicharon’s crunchiness never beated the taste of the sisig, it was just enough to join the fun. My friend’s grilled liempo, which she mentioned as her favorite and cheaper by 25 pesos from what I got, proves to be really juicy, I tried strips of it and it may seem like the normal liempo but the packed juiciness of it makes it all different.
The Pit is seemingly famous with Thomasians and I hope that the good food they deliver wouldn’t falter as they go forward with the years to come. This restaurant deserves an 8 star rating out of 10. Store layout isn’t surprising but food is promising!
The Pit is located Asturias almost beside Dapitan St. and near Jollibee.
We usually feel bad about over thinking. In so many times when we do, we would usually hope that we have the power to cease the different things running in our head. Well maybe, we are sure that if we pause from having these thoughts, we would make things less complicated. Hence life can be easier. This considerably could also, at some point may put us to sleep in such tranquil. I mean, thinking turns us into an imagination machine. Funny but well, not really. What can I do? I am just a human being, likely to think, to rationalise and in many situations, to over rationalise. It’s hard to trust at this point. It’s hard to let things onto the hands of fate. Whether I like to keep you or not, it’s not a decision that only I will make. Permission is yours.
Liking can be one sided but painful. You get no rights and you get late night thoughts.
Everyday in squares.
There are things that are out of our reach, things we cannot control and things that we should just put into the hands of fate. In as much as I would want to believe that I’m born with choices and hence can do whatever I can, I still would have to remember that I am no hero to surpass all that could ever exist in my path. It is fallacious to say that I am limitless, I am a simple creature bound by rules of human nature.
How can this be more than private if you prefer to be an anon?